will i ever?
If i get that Kate Spade bag in cranberry for 170.00 when i can't afford groceries? will that satsify me?

If I loose the weight? Stop taking the pills? Take that one last pill? Quit eating the food. Quit drinking the drinks. How about if I can just remember to brush my teeth today? I don't think that cranberry red purse will go with yellow teeth. No matter what I accomplish or have there is always something else. And i always seem to think the 170.00 purse is going to make it all better, but i can't remember to brush my teeth or fix my hair. How screwed up is that?

[This message has been edited by Citykittie (edited 03-17-2003).]

It's as screwed up as you want it to be.

So now that you have identified the problem, what are you willing to do about it?

This board offers all the help, support and suggestions that you could possibly want. It's up to you from there.

As far as I'm concerned; I think you answered your own question.

If I don't learn to love myself as I am so good at telling others to do; I'll never know the happiness that I'm so desperate for.

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Gina

I hear ya kittie -

It's all I can do to get up and drag my ass into the shower when I have no meds. I want to see no one. Don't talk to me, hell, don't look at me.

I've been waiting for S/S disability for almost a year. I have been out of work for 4 years this August. Prior to this, I had something of a gold fettish. I had gold coming out my ass. Well, by the second year out of work, I had sold every piece I own to pay for meds and food. Some weeks, I bought the meds instead of food. I'm talking legit scripts from my doc at the pharmacy. Not off the street, and I still couldn't afford them. It ran me about $700 a month.

Thankfully, I just got medicaid from New Hampshire. Now I pay 50 cents per script, and this has really lightened the load. My family and friends got together over the different holidays - Christmas, my b-day, Valentine's, etc and pretty much replaced my gold. I just got my 19 gram 14k Gucci chain back, and I feel like a million bucks. Of course, with the fibromyalgia, I have lousy teeth. Got a great gold chain, but no front teeth to go with it! Well, a slight embellishment - they're not that bad.

Anyway, hang in there - it can get better! Dawn

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