Jane X
09-14-2003, 10:17 AM
This is something that I've been dealing with for awhile, I've posted this before but I want to describe it better than I have already.
I have severe anxiety, most of it revolves around my bowels. I am constantly thinking about it, I don't even know if there is a time of the day when I am not thinking about it. I take Citrucel twice a day, once in the morning and once at night. I usually have a bowel movement in the morning every morning. As good as this sounds it's like torture to me. It's not like a normal one, it was normal for a few days and that made me think I was cured but then the stools got softer and I had to go like 4 or 5 times. It's not really diarhea, but its loose and gross (sorry).
I'm in college and terrified of going to class. I'm so afraid that I will have the urge to go in the middle of class and then scared if I will be able to hold it. I usually just tell myself that its in my head and I just need to get over it. Man, when I have those dreadful 3 hour classes, I have two on mondays, I just cannot think about anything but 'what if I have to go to the bathroom?'
It would be wonderful if I could go to the bathroom shortly after I wake up and then have a nice solid bowel movement and then not have any pains or strange feelings for the rest of the day. I have had days like this, where I will go once and I will feel great all day long, no gas or anything.
This morning it was like most days though, I went to the bathroom and then a couple more times. Then I had to go again and it was runny, just like diarhea, out of nowhere. Needless to say, this has made my anxiety worse, out of all the times that I think that 'I don't have diarhea its all in my head' something really does happen. I am now afraid to eat. I don't know else to do and I've explained this the best that I can, I need someone to relate and help me get over this.
I have severe anxiety, most of it revolves around my bowels. I am constantly thinking about it, I don't even know if there is a time of the day when I am not thinking about it. I take Citrucel twice a day, once in the morning and once at night. I usually have a bowel movement in the morning every morning. As good as this sounds it's like torture to me. It's not like a normal one, it was normal for a few days and that made me think I was cured but then the stools got softer and I had to go like 4 or 5 times. It's not really diarhea, but its loose and gross (sorry).
I'm in college and terrified of going to class. I'm so afraid that I will have the urge to go in the middle of class and then scared if I will be able to hold it. I usually just tell myself that its in my head and I just need to get over it. Man, when I have those dreadful 3 hour classes, I have two on mondays, I just cannot think about anything but 'what if I have to go to the bathroom?'
It would be wonderful if I could go to the bathroom shortly after I wake up and then have a nice solid bowel movement and then not have any pains or strange feelings for the rest of the day. I have had days like this, where I will go once and I will feel great all day long, no gas or anything.
This morning it was like most days though, I went to the bathroom and then a couple more times. Then I had to go again and it was runny, just like diarhea, out of nowhere. Needless to say, this has made my anxiety worse, out of all the times that I think that 'I don't have diarhea its all in my head' something really does happen. I am now afraid to eat. I don't know else to do and I've explained this the best that I can, I need someone to relate and help me get over this.