I'm a 19-year-old Aspie, recently diagnosed. (I also have comorbid OCD.) My biggest symptom is also the obsessive fixations. The one that I have to talk and talk about is currently the movie
A Beautiful Mind. Others are
I Love Lucy, Frank Sinatra, FDR, American history, and neuropsychiatry. I found it interesting that you have a "need" to memorize things. I do, too, but I think this stems from my OCD. Of course, extraordinary memory is an Aspie thing. Do you have trouble keeping friends? You say you're sociable, but there has to be some sort of social awkwardness involved for you to have Asperger's. It's a common misconception that all Aspies are these stone walls that don't want to talk to anybody. We actually like to talk to people... so we can talk about our "special interests." Aspies engage in what are called "one-sided conversations," which means that, once you get us started on something, it's hard to get us to stop. We like to take control and get the topic back onto our "special interests" in any way we know how. We may interrupt, switch topics abruptly, or not let anybody get a word in edgewise. I'm guilty of all three. My one friend said that when I'm in "full-blown Aspie mode," I'm like a train, and I just run over everything she tries to say. I'm viewed as a very friendly person, but I hate people. I tolerate them the best I can, but just because I appear to be polite and sociable doesn't mean that I want to be. I'm a loner. I'd much rather be by myself than with anyone. The computer and people on my forums are my best friends. I have real friends, but I rarely contact them. I just don't see the point. I only seek them out when my enthusiasm and need too talk about my "special interests" gets to great for me to talk about them to myself. Do you not have any friends? Have friends, but don't care about them/have trouble keeping them? (That's how I am.) The fact that you can't let little things go is more OCD-ish. I'm the same way. I don't have horrible social deficits with my Asperger's, but I think this is the OCD. I always worry that I hurt somebody's feelings or that somebody's mad at me. I'm hyperaware of voice intonation. I'm not good at reading facial expressions, but I'm very good at telling tones of voice and what they mean. I often read too much into things. Feel free to ask me any questions about either OCD or Asperger's because I'd like to try and help you sort this out, too. I just need some more information. Good luck, and God bless!
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