Hi Mary,
I really feel for you and don’t know what to tell you except you need to see your doctor. You sound so frightened and not being able to breathe is truly a frightening thing. I KNOW! I too have a fear of dying in my sleep. I thought I had licked this fear, but it recently resurfaced due to something that is happening to me (asthma related) and I’m afraid to go to sleep at night again. A few things I’d like to tell you to try to help you.
Please check with your doctor on the use of your inhaler. The dosage that you’re doing - was that prescribed by your physician? 12 times a day to me seems to be excessive and unless your doctor prescribed it that way, the medication may be having an adverse effect on you physically, as well as psychologically.
Have you mentioned to your doctor about how extremely tight your chest feels at night when you wake up and can’t breathe? Is this why you’ve been at the emergency room 3 times this year? If you haven’t talked to him about it, you really should and be persistent about it and the effect it’s having on you.
A few years ago I had an incident happen to me that was probably the most frightening thing that has happen to me so far in my life that I really don’t want to happen to you. I had a *very, very* bad asthma attack. Woke up unable to breathe, started coughing uncontrollably, gasping and was unable to get enough oxygen. And then as I was desperately struggling to intake oxygen I stopped breathing - literally. I was unable to inhale or exhale - my chest felt like someone was sitting on it - it was so tight I could not believe it. My heart went into overdrive, and I freaked out, out of panic and my body was spasming. It happened during the night which didn’t help matters. I was very, very lucky that I was with someone who knew how to resuscitate me and knew CPR (although my heart never stopped). I survived it but I was afraid to go to sleep for a very long time afterwards. I kept thinking I was going to wake up having an attack and it was going to happen again.
When you visited the emergency room - what did they tell you? Did they give you a breathing treatment to help you breathe easier?
I know what you mean about wanting to enjoy your teenage years and not worry about wheezing and all that, but when you have asthma that’s a problem you have to face and learn to live with. I've had asthma for years and I still go to movies and have to worry about having an attack because of the dry air in the theaters or going to an amusement park and if the pollen, or excitement on a ride will set me off. But I learned to deal and with medication and treatment, you will too.
If you want to talk further, let me know. But, please, if you already haven’t done so, go to your doctor and tell him how bad your asthma is at night and how you are worrying about it and how it is affecting you. I’m sure he’ll try to do something to help alleviate your fears and help reduce your symptoms with proper treatment and medication. |