ShonenYo

I'm conflicted on whether i have autism or don't. I don't find the online tests adequate and would like an opinion from those who are more familiar with the disorder.

Here are some of the important details:
- When I was born the docs said I wasn't autistic (according to my mother)

- My brother is severely autistic

- My body-language is devoid of any expression usually

- I often rock, stretch and play with objects when I'm bored (I'm rocking my leg and have a pen in my mouth now)

- I perform very poorly socially and have terrible anxiety issues. People see me as "weird".

- My mother told me that I was very obsessive when I was little. I still am to some degree; i have to read lines of books over a lot, I sometimes imagine movie scenes or just scenes where I have to review until it is played out perfectly. My previous behavior included washing my hands constantly, biting my hands, flapping my hands; actually, I still do the latter.

- Often pace around pretending I'm involved in some sort of exciting activity (war, fighting, etc).

- I prefer being alone.

- I was positive on most Asperger's questionnaires, but was negative on most emotion recognition tests.

- In my opinion, I'm very good at predicting other people's emotions, but I suspect that this is just from experience with bullying and abuse.

- I've been in French classes since kindergarten and I barely know any French at all.

- Certain textures bug the hell out of me: carpet surfaces, brushes, etc. I love the smell of fresh paper though.

- I have speech problems.

Well, that's all I can think of for now. I'd like some opinions on what you guys think: this is really frustrating me. I hope I represented both sides well, I keep feeling that I might be biased in my own opinion of myself.