stopped feeling sorry for myself - Autism Spectrum Message Board

maggie78 · 01-17-2007, 09:32 AM

hi everyone. last night there was a horrible tragedy in my family. my cousin's 2 year old drowned in the family pool. as grief stricken as i am, because we are a big and extremely close knit family, it was also a wake up call for me. I have been feeling so sad, over my son's pdd diagnosis. I have been feeling sorry for myself, and for him. i've had such a sense of loss, almost of mourning that perfect child, with perfect dreams, and a perfect future. but not anymore, because after i left my cousin's home, i got to go home to HIM. i got to hug him and kiss him and sleep with him all night. she no longer had anyone. I am so happy and grateful to have him, pdd and all. Today will mark a new beginning, a new way of looking at life and him. I have gotten my "perfect" child back, pdd and all!!

ruby41 · 01-17-2007, 01:14 PM

So sorry to hear of your loss.

sheevee · 01-17-2007, 01:38 PM

It sometimes takes a tragedy to make us appreciate what we have and jolt us out of our misery. My youngest daughter works with autistic children and it is amazing how much progress some of the children are making.

Kolby · 01-17-2007, 01:47 PM

I am so so sorry to hear that. Your cousin will need all the support she can get. How sad and horrible for you family. I pray that they, including you, will stay close. There is nothing worse then for a mother to loose a child.

I know, my sister just lost her only child in a freak accident. He fell off his skateboard this summer and didn't have a helmet on. It looked like someone took a bat to him really. It was so horrible. We drove the few hours it took to be by his and her side. It was one of the most preventable accidents ever. He just didn't listen. He was 16 and knew she would be at work and he wouldn't get in trouble for not wearing it. Now he's gone and it has made us all change. My husband stopped playing video games and now spends a lot of time with us. And I thank God I have my kids. Yes Autism itself drives me crazy sometimes but I'd take it over nothing. And I don't think my son will need me all his life. I keep thinking my husband and I will be retired and visiting our grandchildren at our son's house. We just don't think any other way.
God Bless you,
Michelle

9CatMom · 01-17-2007, 07:46 PM

(((Maggie)))