Losy

background - previous lL4/L5 & L5/S1 fusion bone and at present L3/4 bulge)
Its 2:30 am in the morning in melbourne Australia, theres a storm brewing and my dog Asha, a border Collie. is barking at the thunder as it roles in from the east. How do I know this you ask. Well its because Im awake as a result of an increase in pain yet again. I had been travelling well for 3 to 4 weeks making slow but positive progress attending hydro, doing my exercises on a regular basis and gradually increasing my capacity and strength while slowly reclaiming my life. In this time my level of pain had declined and I had been able to reduce some meds. Well like a flash its back, the pain that is. Shooting pain from my back to the tips of my toes. My shins and and hamstrings are feeling it to and even my back feels tender in and around the donor graft site and to the left of my spine in the vacinity of the donir site.

How did this happen - well your guess is as good as mine. I have been extreemly careful to do what I am told and to not do more than i am allowed. Well it would appear that it makes little difference what I do or dont do. I cant get passed the same point each time I try and am fast approaching the why even bother stage. Im so sick of seeing hope in the distance and or the light at the end of the tunnel only to see it tuned off as you near it.

Well ive vented and im sure there are many of you who can relate to that sense of despair that comes with the dissapointment and distress assoiciated with increased pain and decreased mobility. Thanks for listening