I know that I am trying to just get through this pain, and depression one day at a time, but little things keep happening to set me back. My surgery is coming up on the 17th, and when it does my mom in law, and my mom will come down to help out for 6 weeks. But ....this morning as I was trying to give my little (big) guy (36lbs) a bath, he arched back when I tried to get him out of the tub, and I almost dropped him, its getting worse, I have hardly any strength, and it hurts worse by the day.
I cried and cried, what if......I know you can live like that, but this is my baby I'm talking about. I don't know what to do. I am just a wreck.
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you. I don’t have children but I am scared that this will prevent me from ever experiencing that. I know how hard it is, this is my second time through. The first time running up to surgery I had all the daily setbacks too. Just hug your baby, give him kisses, and stare into his eyes and things will be better for just that moment. Those moments are the ones that you have to hang onto to get through.
Just remember we are all here for you whenever you need to vent, do your best to stay positive but know that it is okay to cry too.
Hi there,
I'm sorry you are going through such a tough time. Maybe that was a sign. Maybe you should be getting your husband to do such jobs. I know it's hard, well I don't have children but I can imagine. Basically you don't want to take that chance again and you are right what if? All I can say is just be carefull and pray that after your surgery you will have a better life. I will be praying for you. We are here if you need to vent or cry, we all understand so keep that in mind. Take care and go give your little one a big hug and kiss. Good luck. Kristy.
Hey Cincigirl
Just checking in on you today, I have read your other posts. I see you go to the doctor tomorrow. Sit down and write any questions you may have. Because as you know when any of us get to the doctor something happens and at times are brain seems to leave and we forget all those questions we had Please take it one day , you will not be able to change or fix everything overnight it sounds like it will be a bit of a process, but YOU CAN DO IT. Please post and let us know what happens tomorrow or sooner if you need to. Me and all my friends are here waiting for you....SEE! and me
shelley
It's getting worse.... 
Hey Cincigirl
Please take it one day , you will not be able to change or fix everything overnight it sounds like it will be a bit of a process, but YOU CAN DO IT. 
Please post and let us know what happens tomorrow or sooner if you need to. Me and all my friends are here waiting for you....SEE! 
