I am in a very bad place right now.
Last summer I had a herniation at L4-L5 with nerve root compression. Sorry if that isn't the right terminology but that is what the doctor told me.
The only treatment I had was regular chiropractic care (still going on) and exercise at home (still happening to the best of my abilities). I have been doing okay.
In March I had pain daily and that went away at the beginning of this month. Yesterday while getting dressed something happened and I am in severe pain today.
I am meeting with my doctor to discuss a referral to surgeon. Making this appointment felt like booking a date for my execution. I am terrified. I have heard bad stories about people coming out worse off than when they went in. Not only that but my current job does not have disability benefits and when I don't work I don't make money. Because the job doesn't have those benefits I cannot get government assistance either because I haven't been paying in to something for at least the last 4 of 6 years.
Part of my problem is that I am overweight. I have lost 113 pounds in the last few years but I am still considered obese. I have a "pooch" in front that hangs down slightly. This "pooch" is mostly skin but some fat. When I support the "pooch" with my own hands I feel immediate relief. Part of me wonders if my big stomach is what is causing the problem. No matter what I try though there is no getting rid of it.
I have had some people tell me that I could have some type of surgery to remove this. Does anyone know if that is true? I dont' think a plastic surgeon would do liposuction of the fat that is there because isn't that considered cosmetic? And I don't know if they will take the skin off because there is still some fat there. But I would rather do that before I have a more invasive back surgery. And because it would not be for cosmetic reasons I might be able to get it covered by insurance, either my husbands or OHIP (I live in Ontario, Canada).
If anyone can offer some advice, stories, anything, I would appreciate it. I am only 29 years old. I feel like I am 60. And I can't live like this anymore.