Abrie25

Hello, thanks for taking the time to read this people.(This is about 5 paragraphs long, just to let you know) Its more than some doctors would do and i really appreciate it.
I am a 25/F and I have had MRI's and xrays done on my back. I was diagnosed with severe sciatica, spinal stenosis and other things I do not remember the technical names of. That was in the summer of 2003 and I have been suffering from pain since i was 13. It has gradually gotten worse and by teh time I was 18 I was having spasms from hell. The kind that woudl arise out of nowhere and keep me from moving a muscle. When i get these I have literally had to drag myself everywhere. A coupel times i was floor ridden for 2 weeks before it subsided enough for me to move. Its the most excruciating electrical pain I have ever felt in my life and i never know when it will come on. I have held in my urine bc i was deathly frightened of teh pain i would endure on the toilet, just sitting down!

So i talked to a neurologist a couple of years ago, teh one who sent me for xrays, and mri's and he basically todl me i had a severe condition and teh only thing he can think to do is give me cortisone shot and or surgery if needed. I am 25 ! Holy F***. Well, i was with a place called vocation rehab at the time which promised they would pay for a cortisone shot or surgery as i cannot afford it and i have no insurance, and then the lovely people backed out on me.

I was 23 then , i am now going to be 26 and i experience back pain like you wouldnt beleive which radiates all the way down my legs to my toes. It really makes it hard to live with and i can barely sit or stand for 15 min. I have to keep resituating myself or stand up , i just do intervals of both and i look like im antsy and cant sit still. But what else can i do ?? So, Its gotten to the point where i am actually becoming accustomed to this pain but it has ripped thorugh me emotionally and I think it may have spread through my whole body bc every part of it aches now and cracks . I bet i have arthritis as well, Its not common in people my age but it does happen, i mean its not rare.
Another doctor I went to recently was an ortheopedic and he took a look at my xrays and told me that he was surprised i wasnt in a car accident bc i had what looked like injuries more than conditions. I also had the xrays of an old person. Thats comforting to know. You know what he suggested when i asked him if i could get a cortisone shot? ( I got a new counselour at voc rehab, and she said she would help me get the cortisone shot through another doctor) This doctor said that he didnt reccomend it and that iw as too young and he wouldnt do t to his own daughter. He told me to build up my muscles , my abs to strenghten my back and do swimming exercisies. I am in tears as i type this bc that is something i cant do. I hurt too much to even do that, all over my body.

So my question is, who can i go to get the help i need, Where can i turn? Can i possibly get SSI for this. I am not to the point where i cant walk but its very difficult to do everyday things. I just want to feel better and normal at this age and i cant. I wake up in the morning feeling like someone has beat me to a bloody pulp, liek teh way you feel when you have teh flu , but worse. Sore all over my body , every inch. It hurts to even move my arms and i crack a lot. My neck is the worst. Its very stiff and everything is just always cracking or crackling. I think that is a sure sign of arthritis . I cant afford a chiro so thats out of teh question until i get a fulltime job with benefits. Im not even in a job right now, i just go to school(finishing up my medical secretarial certificate) but i am looking for work and im so scared i wont be able to function and they will fire me b/c of my condition. What can i do for myself? Massages? Physical therapy? Shoudl i demand treatment from this place that supposedly helps with dissabilities. If i was accepted for this condition, its obviously a dissability right? Any help would be greatly appreciated beyond comprehension. Thank you for listening.