Hang in there! I too have been on a rollercoaster of emotions for 4 yrs. now. Some days it is truely overwellming to be happy about anything. You just have to take one day at a time. Don't think about tomorrow or next week, just get through the day and focus on the little things that make you smile. I can say these things today because I am having a good day, it's only 9:30 AM. I usually start out pretty good, tight legs, feet tender at first, but hey, I was able to get out of bed. It is so hard to think of our lives before back injuries, all the things we thought we would be doing. Who knows why it happens, why some heal so fast, and some of us not at all. As long as you keep moving forward, mentally especially, who cares if it's at a snails pace, as long as it's forward. Some days I want someone to just push me around in a wheel chair cause I hurt so bad, but I don't I walk cuz I still can! I think mentally for me, if I gave into that I would spiral downward fast,
not good! I hope you have a happy day, and your pain is not so bad so that you can go and enjoy something you love to do. God Bless You, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayer's.