I think we all understand very well how emotionally and physically draining chronic, and severe pain can be.
Yesterday, something happened that terrified me. I was at a stop light waiting to turn left. My daughter was in her car seat in the back. I swear the light turned green (even though it did not), and I started driving right into 60 MPH traffic. It was dark outside, so luckily the headlights of the oncoming cars awoke me from my fog and I avoided a horrible accident. I could have killed my daughter and I. I cried very very hard after that.
The worst part about this is, the same exact thing happened today. 2 days in a row. I was at a red light, and thought it turned green and started driving. This time I was in the car by myself. Luckily I was almost home, and the minute I got into the house I burst into tears again.
I NEVER take my pain medication during the day. I wait until my daughter goes to sleep in fact before I take anything, so there shouldn't have been anything in my system. Both incidents happened in the late afternoon and evening. I also don't drink alcohol.
I am exhausted and stressed out, mainly because of my health issues. should I call my doctor? I am afraid to drive again.
meggs.....yes!!! from reading some of your posts you sound tired/exhausted and with the pain youve been dealing with Im sure you have been lacking sleep....I was at that point a few nights myself.....someone with worse pains will be even worse....I suspect your way over tired and the pain and problems have you in a daze.....dont do any major things unless you really feel up to it until you get past this problem.....Im not real big on meds and pain meds in particular....but I did ask my doctor for something to help me sleep.....it really helped......thank god you didnt have a wreck! ask someone close to you for help until you can get past this. show them this thread.....its not worth it to not get some kind of help for awhile.
It was a 65mph accident that has me in this situation.
Megss, it sounds like you need a break. Is it possible to arrange for you hubby to care for your daughter over the weekend or a family member so that you can get some much needed sleep? Maybe you could crash at a girl friends house/family members house or better yet stay in a luxurious hotel so you won't be tempted to help out with your daughter. Even for 24 hours this might be the best thing in the world for you. You need to just relax, chill, and listen to your body for a little bit. If you need to sleep you can do this without thinking about the laundry or feeding your daughter or even grocery shopping. Unfortunately that will still be there tomorrow. Right now you need to concentrate on you so that your body can rest up.
I definitely would not be driving with your mind not being fully focused on it. Take care and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am exhausted, but I was able to get some sleep this weekend. My sister and brother in law took my daughter Saturday because I woke up with a migraine, and I slept the entire time! Then I got to take a 2.5 hour nap today.
I called my Dr. and told him about what happened, and he scolded me for taking pain meds while driving, even though I clearly told him I was not! And thats why I was so worried about myself! I also looked up the side effects of Ultracet, and I am not supposed to me taking it with my Celexa. There is an increased risk of seizures. So he called me in more vicodin.
The pain is just becoming more than I can handle. I actually threw up today from it. I really want this to be over so I can get my life back!
Are you sure that you threw up today because of the pain or could it be the Vicodin? I am very sensitive to it and it gets me any time I take it - even with food.
I am 12 weeks post op from a PLIF at L5/S1 and remember feeling really out of it before the surgery because of the constant pain. Like you I did not take pain meds during the day until after I was done working (I work from home) and then never drove with it. For me it seemed that dealing with so much pain just took so much physical energy but I didn't realize the mental and emotional energy it drains as well. I called it Swiss Cheese Brain.
I do hope that you are able to get some relief from your pain. It can't be easy with small children! As others have said, sleep is so important for your physical and mental healing so try to get as much as you can.
I am positive it wasn't from the vicodin. I hadn't taken any yet that day, and I threw up in the evening.
It is so exhausting. Thankfully I get a 5 day weekend starting now. My work is also putting me on disability sooner than my surgery. I am thankful that they are being so understanding to my situation.
How are you feeling after surgery? I am very nervous about the recovery.