unhappyone

I am at a point now where I'm hoping to find validation and hope in these message boards. It's now almost six month after an accident where a car hit my car while I was working. He ran a red light. He changed my life.

I have physical pain much of the time. It's better and worse again. I worked so hard to get to where I was. What this has done to me and the lack of control that I have now is killing me. Now I've started to become depressed. The intensity of it and the feeling of it is a feeling that is strange to me. It feels difficult to control. I don't know if it is because I hit my head in the accident. I don't know if it's all the pressure from the last six months. I don't know if it's PTSD.

I'm honestly looking at the clock and thinking that I have another hour to cry before my kids get home from school and I have to try to maintain some control of my emotional turmoil for their sake. I feel lost, cold, tired, desperate. I need somebody's advice.