Re: The Pain
nothing is worse than pain and knowing you can't stay on a couch and ice yourself for relieve.
I have a question; are you on any Long Acting drugs, the once you take every 6 or 8 hours every day? I am not talking about BT medication, but LA. This is important for chronic pain to keep blood plasma at same levels to prevent ups and downs of pain.
I had my car accident in 2003, knew I need spinal surgery but went to have one only 3 years later when my limb nerves got involved. I was afraid to loose my wonderful job and was hoping things will get better.
I know exactly what you dealing with while at work. We had gym in our office and rest room. I would go every 30-40 minutes in that room and lay down on the floor to stretch gently. And just to have some rest to my painful spine. I would spend 5-7 minutes in that position until my meds work a little and than go back to work. I had ice in the fridge in our kitchen and also had an herbal sack which i would heat in microwave. I used ice and also heated herbal bag all day long.
I am not sure if you can do that at your work, but one thing you must do: dont sit for too long, you get up at least for couple minutes pretty often, I would say every 20 minutes take a little brake around your computer. Sitting for too long, brings you more pain, more inflammation to the area.
On a way home I was dreaming about hot bath I would take every night. This would help me a lot to help somewhat normal night.
Just my 2 cents...
Hope surgery will give you back good quality of life and pain will be just a bad dream.