gracetoo71

imagine two bi polars living under the same roof. that was me and my sister for awhile. her bi polar was very severe in the early stages at the time mine was very mild. she would walk in the house and just look at me as though she wanted to strangle someone, and i would do since i was the only one around. figuritivly of course, she never became physical. this would go on for hours, or sometimes days. then she would be fine for awhile. she would be downright mean at times and it took alot for me to learn how to deal with it. i found it best to tell her i was there for her whenever she needed me, but that i was going to give her space. i would just let her go, and only speak to her when i was spoken to. she even admitted that i hadn't done anything wrong, but that she was angry and since i was the only one around, i got the brunt of it. i could relate somewhat because i would get the same feelings, but just not as severe as hers. i would feel angry for no reason, want to just crawl in a corner somewhere for awhile and be left alone, or feel a lump in my throat as if i were about to cry for no reason. as i get older, these feelings are becoming more intense. i have seen this in others and know first hand how it is they feel. my sister just wanted to be left alone, as do i when i get in a mood. i don't want pity, or for someone to try to fix me when i am in a mood. i just want to be left alone to fight my demons, anger, feelings, whatever you want to call it. i can't speak for your boyfriend. all i can offer is my experience. i hope i have helped in some way. best wishes and take care