always depressed - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Danielle895 · 10-18-2004, 08:30 PM

Im 17, I don't keep friends, depressed, I have a low self esteem, I can never make up my mind I'm always tired, I think too much, I am sometimes shy, sometimes hyper, friendly sometimes, good at art, everyone at school is boring to me, all the people I eat lunch with are boring. I become really nervous around too many people. There are only a few people who amuse me. I have always prefered to be a loner. I was diagnose with ADD at 4 and took ridilin most my life. now taking clasapam and adderal and I'm supposed to be taking zoloft

does this sound like bi-polar?

reesie · 10-19-2004, 09:11 AM

that depends, ADD and bipolar have symptoms in common. What are your hypers like? Do you ever get inexplicably happy to the point of being too perky or enraged easily or feel like your brain doesn't shutoff and operates in overdrive? It could recurrent depression or something else. bipolar kinda requires a big swing to and from depression.

-reesie

Ruth6:11 · 10-19-2004, 04:11 PM

Sounds like you're an average teen to me!!
Hang in there - time takes care of alot of the things you mentioned -
Come back here anytime tho, ok?

Danielle895 · 10-19-2004, 06:16 PM

I've been depressed on and off for 8 years, as far as I can remeber. yesterday I slept all day and was depressed while today I did all my homework and did a painting for a friend. My psycologist who i see 15 minutes a month isnt much help

Danielle895 · 10-20-2004, 09:48 PM

This board isnt helping me yet.
I wish I could tell my parents I need help, I cant handle school, I dont like people, nothing is worthwhile, I dont like tv, I dont believe in god, I dont believe in love, I used to abuse my pets when I was young, I feel guilty over everything, I only eat because it's necessary, I dont like shopping, The only thing I always like is coffee, but I dont really like starbucks, I dont like being high or drunk. What I really want is to just go away from everything I know and start over, even a type of boot camp would be good.
I had a party when my dad was out of town and I wanted boot camp for that. When I was down to 105 and I'm 5'5 2 months ago and all my clothes were falling off (had to start wearing belts) my parents didnt say anything and I thought I wasent skinny enough cause a guy was ignoring me, All I needed was rehab, I dont even remeber 3-6 months of my life cause everynight was a party. I'm 17, and I cant even tell these things to my cousilor. What do I tell her? She never helps me, she only finds ways for me to help my self, and I do that in my own time with out her.