ThomasJ

I was diagnosed BP in 1989 but didn't believe it and stopped my Lithonate and AP. Within a year I was divorced -- I could not stand to have people around me including my wife.

I was single until 1996 with only sporadic instances of mania, very little depression and no meds. Remarried, then first wife tipped me over the edge into depression by kidnapping our son whom I had custody of. My GP put me on various SSRIs, finally settling on Zoloft. I was taking it from 1996 until the end of 2000, when I stopped. I was hypomanic during the Zoloft, ran up a lot of debt, but personality wise was manageable. But I went completely off my rocker after a few months without it -- paranoia, delusions, hated having people around me... just like before. Marriage number two crashed and burned.

Went back on Zoloft in 2001 then stopped early this year. Once again, extremely depressed, cutting urges and suicidal ideations, then hypomania that bloomed into an almost complete manic episode. I was delusional again, extremely vicious to people, and almost lost my job. I am back on Zoloft but am seeing a psych this week to see about mood stabilizers as well.

Needless to say, I don't date and am not in any relationships and will not be until I get myself stabilized. If not, I'm resigned to possibly being alone...