Why do I think Im ugly? - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Munozchick · 01-02-2005, 11:05 AM

I'm baaacckkk! I seem to still be overwhelmed with jealousy with my husband. I also am having bad self esteem issues. I can't ever seem to look good or feel good. My poor husband is sick of this and so am I. Do you think its because of my self medicating issue? I was like this when we were in the States but it wasnt as bad. Please help.

princesspea · 01-02-2005, 12:07 PM

Hi,

Me again! I have a terrible self exteeme problem when my meds are off. I've been through therapy for it, so when I go through it it's probably my meds. That is when I'm on a down swing. I'm beautiful when I'm up

. My poor huband has to constantly reassure me when I'm in Ugly mode.

I get so jellous when I'm out of wack that I don't like him going to a salon to get his hair cut. For fear the girl will brush up against him. I cut his hair here now. It's not unusual. Now to do something about it...it took allot of work on both our parts. He doesn't put himself in situations that make me Jellous (of course he has to work with women close to him). I had to learn to trust him and hold my tongue. I don't know exactly when it changed for me but, I do know if my meds are off and my old tapes start playing I can land right back in it.

I have no words of wisdom...there are allot of people smarter than me on this site. Just wanted to share my experience so you know you're not allone.

Love,

Jamie

mudhound · 01-02-2005, 12:12 PM

How long have you been married?
Looks are not the item that hold together a pair.
You are a human bring that is slowly tearing tourself apart. try to hold yourself togther. The hubby must think you are special. he married you didn't he?