Why do they have to judge? - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

Whelmed · 01-26-2005, 09:05 PM

Hey all! OK, I went to my nurse yesterday and I was feeling 100% better than the previous month for many reasons. A) I started taking 40 mg. Paxil as opposed to 20 mg. B) I was having an UP day, which means Happy Happy Happy ! Anyway, when I'm up it's hard for me to explain how I feel when I'm down. I'm a total different person!

Also, you have to know that I have never been one to show my feelings. It's just not me, I can't make myself. So, when I'm sad you might think I'm happy, but it's all in my head. Anyway, I felt like she doesn't believe me anymore! And I feel like anyone I've told about my problem (only family and my nurse) only think I'm craving attention. It's been like this for years! This drive me CRAZY because I'd give anything to feel NORMAL again! What can I do to make them believe me? I hate this.

Thanks!

A

Whelmed · 01-26-2005, 09:09 PM

One more thing... I'm afraid that when I see my psych. doctor in 2 months that if I'm feeling better due to the drugs, she won't be able to properly diagnose me. She won't know what really goes on when I'm not taking them. I'm getting sick of doctors not knowing what's wrong. Well, not their fault I guess.

A

Rani* · 01-26-2005, 09:17 PM

Hi Whelmed
Im new here and ran across some of you posts regarding those bad days
you speak of. Ive been told to keep a journal good days and bad. All
it would take is to copy and past and date your postings in you journal.
That way you dont have to explain it just have them read it.
Good Luck, Rani

dragon25 · 01-27-2005, 06:48 AM

Hi Whelmed,
I agree with Rani about the journal. My psych said I should use a scale from 1 to 10, 1 being extremely depressed, 5 being normal, and 10 being extremely manic. This has helped him and I both to know what's going on in my little head up there from day to day!

princesspea · 01-27-2005, 12:14 PM

I agree with Rani and dragon,

Write, Write, Write!

I think you should also print out some of your "Bad" day posts and take them with you.

Love,

Jamie