Concerned39

Hi all. I have been away from the board for awhile but am back again. I am having a problem that I hope you can give me some tips on. I am a bp2 w/ rapid cycling- on meds for 10 years and as stable as I can be. I do not work as I can't handle the stress of day to day upsets- and need to have a relatively easy schedule or I get worked up and confused. Ok with that said, I have been single for 4 years- my own choosing- and now want to get back into the dating world- but with me not being in the work force and out meeting people- it is quite difficult- lol. I joined a dating site but there is not many in my area who participate on the site- guess the guys here in this city just don't get into it. Now I have made contact a few times with others from different provinces- but here is my problem. When I find someone I am interested in and get a reply back- my emotions take over and I get really excited and start to fall for the person quite quickly( always had trouble with runaway emotions) and then when it turns out they weren't all that interested I fall hard.I get depressed and can't sleep and get really down. I know I need to take it slow, but that is where my trouble is as my heart is an open book and it runs away with feelings before I can stop it. I don't want to give up on trying, but I need advice on dealing with the anxious feelings when someone shows interest- and to keep my emotions in check and stop the excited feelings I get right away- and then end up broken hearted when I can't hold their interest.Double whammy as I first want to find someone who I can love and be loved by- and then I have to find out if he can deal with my bp- so it seems to me like I need to get their interest twice. I am becoming a basket case in the dating scene- but I don't want to give up and stay single for the rest of my life. I have dealt with all past baggage and my heart is free to love again- but my emotions are another story.Can anyone help this mixed up emotional lady- lol.