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Old 02-19-2005, 11:40 PM   #1
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Life Sucks

Well I must have taken a nose dive today, because I truely wish I were dead.
Actually every single day life is a constant fight but today it all built up and I just couldnt handle it. Ive been cursing God all day long. I truely believe he hates me and enjoys torturing. Theres no other excuse. I used to be a devoted christian and knowing God is in total control of this world, he mamade the heavens and earth, allows or disallows suffering, I believe he decided to make my/our life a living hell 3 years ago and since then it has been. DONT preach to me about a loving God because as fair as Im concern if God loved so much, this world it wont be in the shape it is, children wouldnt be mollested and raped. Elderly wouldnt be abused and abandoned
and forced to eat dog food to afford their perscriptions. Dont see much reason for this post except to vent. Like Sucks and I the only escape is death, Im looking forward to mine. Dont worry tomarrow I put my happy
face back on, try my best to ignore the pain until next time, K

 
Old 02-20-2005, 03:02 AM   #2
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Re: Life Sucks

I'm sorry you're having one of "those" days. I hate that! My husband can't stand being around me when Im like that. Tomorrow is another day though. Get some good sleep and wake up refreshed!

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Old 02-20-2005, 04:16 AM   #3
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Re: Life Sucks

Hi K,

WE understand what you are saying.

WE have been there.

WE care.

Stay strong for yourself, work through it, we're here for you.

Hedge.

 
Old 02-20-2005, 05:30 AM   #4
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Re: Life Sucks

You know me K, I'm one of those wacko's who believes God is in each one of US, and I try to make a difference in my little corner of the world for him by proxy ..

(It's on a much smaller scale than the whole world, but I like to think it's part of being a good person - maybe with a few more people doing a little good?)

Hang in there kiddo, you've helped people too you know...

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Old 02-20-2005, 05:48 AM   #5
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Re: Life Sucks

Hi K,

I just want you to know that in the short time I've been reading the boards (but reading alot!) , what YOU have written has helped me. Lifted me. Informed me. Comforted me. I look forward to hearing your wisdom.
Here are a few faces for you to try on for tomorrow.
HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS
Feel better, T

 
Old 02-20-2005, 07:19 AM   #6
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Hmm... methinks that TLP53 is another doing a little work right here on earth...
Ruth

 
Old 02-20-2005, 08:12 AM   #7
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Ahh, if we could only change what happens in life, for everyone. I wonder if we just could control our own what would life be like?
Tomorrow is another day. The sun will set and rise again. I hope your tomorrow is so much brighter than today.

 
Old 02-20-2005, 08:59 AM   #8
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Deanne
Your thoughts are appreicated and comforting, Thanks K


Hedge
You're always there with comforting words, hope you're feeling better today, K


Ruth
i have heard this once before God is in each of us, maybe thats why although I
was taught different I still strive to care about and help others even though I
feel anger towards God. It's still a little confusing for me especailly when I dont
understand why bad things happen to innocient children, elderly and the weak.
Something is wrong with this picture. Thanks for your words at least why I act
as I do, and irregardless of what God actually is or whether he cares or not, Im
cant stop caring. Thanks for the compliment as well. K

TLP53
Thanks for your compliment and for the new faces for today there are cute, K

 
Old 02-20-2005, 09:02 AM   #9
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Doesn't it make you feel warm and tingly inside when friends let you know they care about you...

Hedge.

 
Old 02-20-2005, 09:06 AM   #10
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Hope you dont mind is I call you SBDaisy,
It would be nice if controling our own world protect us from the rest of the world, but
it doesnt work like that. When Im focusing on my own world things arent too bad
it's when I have to deal with the rest of the world life sucks. Except for a few that
really care like people here, but it seems there's not very many around these days.
Dont worry I'll find my happy face put it back on and get back in the ring. Thanks, K

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Old 02-20-2005, 09:32 AM   #11
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Lesson 3B in "How to identify leaning towards inappropriateness"...

I'm SO glad to see this is settling down for K.

IF I had chosen to respond earlier, my hypomanic self WOULD have said:

" ~ and eventually it swallows all of us "

BUT - I realized that 1) that wouldn't really help, with K's suffering, and
2) some entity might even take offense, even though it's a fairly innocent entendre.

So I waited.


NOW that keihn is doing much better, I just had to get that out of my system.

K - you might (or might not) get a kick out of my last post to the thread about how to "deal" with this - as there are common points.

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Old 02-20-2005, 03:57 PM   #12
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Maniasterisk
Ya you're probably right hear it swallows all of us would have just fed my fire
as true as it is. In my case it soon as it gets a taste of me it spits me right
back out. lol

I probably would be a kick out of the posting you refered to but Im a little
confused as to where to find it. You have a very unique way of looking at
things that I find very interesting. Thanks for you imput. K

 
Old 02-20-2005, 07:03 PM   #13
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K,

It sounds like you're doing a little better and I am late! So...
{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}} and love.

Love,

Jamie

 
Old 02-20-2005, 10:31 PM   #14
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Kiehn - thank you.

It's the thread started by jen1008.


I may be twisted - and I may be straight

But I'll do a lot o' livin' 'fore I exit through the gate !!! M*


( PS ~ Thanks to Hedge for shortening it to M* from maniasterisk )

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Old 02-21-2005, 08:33 AM   #15
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M
I read you post to jen1008, considering this is coming from another bipolar that
some may at times be consider totally physco, : ) once again I compliment you on
your ability to express yourself so well, outspoken, clear and with a spice of humor, yet with a touch of a hidden message here or there, impressive. I must admit I dont have that ability but if I did I would choose a style such as yours. Im amazed you
have such clear thinking without med. I on the other hand turn into a raving delusional manic physcopath. Without meds I would need to be in a state hosiptal
for the rest of my life. Cant quite remember your exact words but it was something to the effect the deeper one goes in one direction the deeper they go in the other and I
agree 100%. When Im at the bottom of my depression wihtout med Im catatonic.
Now on the other hand I truely enjoy hypomania, just not the down swing. Thanks
again for sharing you thoughts, everyday I learn something new here. K

 
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