Is jealousy a part of bipolar? I've noticed that I get jealous of people alot. I have a great life but sometimes I feel like everyone else has it so much better than me. I've been this way since I can remember.
hehe, I'm not bi-polar (I don't think anyway) but I find myself thinking that ALL the time.
I have a great life, but sometimes when I'm sitting in traffic I look over at the guy next to me and think "wow, he has it so much better than me. I wish I could be that guy for a day."
I have a great fiance', but I will be at the grocery store and see a couple in front of me and think, "man, that is how love is supposed to be, maybe I'm not right for my fiance. I should be like those people."
Or I'll drive by the park and see kids playing in the field and think "those kids sure do have it good. I wish my childhood would have been as good as that. They don't even know how lucky they are."
I admit its kinda weird to do (and I don't ALWAYS do it) but for some reason I find myself doing it from time to time. Not sure it has anything to do with being bi-polar. Maybe it has more to do with lack of confidence or insecurity.
Sort of wierd how what was just mentioned mirrors exactly what I feel sometimes too. I think the main thing with this is that we sort of seal ourselves off from our accomplishments and what makes us, us. I sometimes dont want to have stress in my life and fantazizing about someone elses "stress free" life is time totally wasted.
I know that part of me is. Not really do I think people have it better, I just think they ARE better. I cannot name any good things I have done. Sure my life is pretty good, but I just can't get over the fact that I PERSONALLY suck. Another thing I do, is constantly think about what other people are doing while I sit around doing nothing. I don't know that I want to "be" someone else rather than cease to be. Good luck on your journey!
Don't feel too badly, I do the same thing depending on the situation. I get hateful about things or people that don't even affect me! Oh well. I am certain people don't like me either -LOL! Lori