I notice that since I have settled down on lamictal for the past wk or couple days or so that I don't care really how I look. My hair looks a mess and I just laugh and think that people must just think I am crazy leaving my house thinking my hair looks good. Anyone know what I mean? Maybe I am just getting a little crazier in a mellow style - lol! I just look in the mirror and laugh! LOL!! Lori
I'm like that too. I don't care that my clothes are wrinkled cause I sure as hell ain't gonna iron them. Or even put them away, I just pull 'em out the laundry basket and put them on! I don't care how my house looks I just step around all the crap on the floor.
Oh man! I am one goofy girl. I have been told I am quite child-like in the way I act and I sure don't care. I watch so many cartoons, like Pokemon, one of my favorites. And I always look like a bum. Once every couple of months I have to dress up a little just to give my boyfriend a little treat and keep him happy!
I'd seen my brother's eyes light with the rage of hellfire... He'd get so carried away with himself, that reason left the building.
It would start grounded - and then spiral inwards ~ feed on itself and then whirl out of control...
You could see it in his eyes...
I've been told I occassionally go there... Others sense it immediately ~ but the person enraged is beyond sound self observation (much less giving a rat's hindquarters what ANYONE thinks)...
As far as hair ~ it's a standing joke with my "stylist" (fancy barber) that I know it's "time" when I look in the rearview mirror (wonder why my FACE is in it) and realize I'm starting to look like the unwed offspring of Larry from the Three Stooges (paired with Einstein)...
The facial stubble bothers me appearance-wise MORE than it ever did in my past...
It doesn't take much to appear like a derelict insane moronic homeless vagrant at my age... Much less "mental" !!! (Was that redundant ?)
Was that TOO brutely honest (in the BiPolar tradition ???)
I won't even mention clothes. I had little use for them BEFORE Depakote bloated me with 40+ unnecessary pounds (talk about vanity)... Now, I see their purpose to be the obfuscation of absolute gut bulges...
I'm not at my best, yet (does it show ???)...
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It's nice to be back (kinda) I wasn't lurking I was feelin' good sleeping 12 hours a day and lying on my couch in my seroquel high. I can't believe I spent almost a month away from the site, but I did. I spent the time doing nothing!
Yep, I'm on Lamictal. After the ridiculous weight gain, I have let the personal hygene slip a bit. When I look in the mirror I see someone I don't recognize any more. "Who is that fat 50 something woman, it can't be me!" Well, It hit home I'm going to go take a shower, Thanks.
Location: Minnesota, just moved from California where I lived my whole life.
Re: Anyone think they "look" loony?
No, in my case, you would never guess that I've had my fair share of breakdowns, and that I see a shrink for mental illness. I'm pretty much obsessed with hygiene. I don't leave the house without showering , putting on a cute, matching outfit, fixing my hair, make-up, the whole bit. People look at me and figure I'm just like every other SUV driving soccer mom from the sub-burbs. (well, ok until summer comes, and you can see my tatoos, that makes me stand out a bit..maybe) I was pretty wild back in the old days !!
Good for you polarized! I used to be so much better about that stuff and I hope I will get there again.!
Oh Terry, it can't be that bad! Don't be so hard on yourself. At least you shower - LOL!! Is that what I have to look forward to with lamictal?? (LOL) Didn't know the weight gain was an issue. Guess I will wait and see. If I feel good, I guess who cares, right?
Well, sometimes, yes it really is that bad. (Going to see PDr soon) But....I smell much better now. LOL As for the weight gain it wasn't so much the Lamictal, you see in 2002 I was diagnosed for the third time with bi-lateral breast cancer. They had to go, got some new and improved versions and enough Decadron (steroids) to choke a horse. Funny, you would think a years worth of chemo would make you lose a few but alas it added 40 lbs. I didn't really see much of a weight change when I started Lamictal....THANK GOD!
Oh, by the way....totally cancer free
Yay! totally cancer free, I am smiling too big right now!! good for you!! weight gain is so NOT an issue when dealing with death I am sure. I am so happy for you!!! You can't even know. Love, and love and more love, Lori