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Old 03-14-2005, 02:06 PM   #1
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Just wanna write.....

Hi everyone,

I had a bad weekend. I am usually fairly stable but on Friday I started to feel

depressed. I haven't been depressed in a while. Well, as the day went on it

got worse. I went to my boyfriend's house and stayed the night. The next

morning he said something to me and I just started crying. I couldn't stop. I

am so glad I have an understanding boyfriend. He did his best to deal with me

that day. I just feel so bad, like I brought him down with me. He said he

couldn't be happy knowing I am not happy. I tried to go home but he kept

asking me to stay. He wanted to help me feel better. I did

stay. I am glad I did because I was scared to be alone. I didn't know what I

might try to do to myself. What do you do when you are scared of yourself? I

haven't been this depressed in about two years, I guess. I don't know what

caused it but I want it to go away. I hate feeling this way. Thanks for

listening. I just had to get it off my chest I guess.
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Old 03-14-2005, 02:26 PM   #2
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Re: Just wanna write.....

I too have had moments when I was afraid of myself and really depressed. But I have nowhere to go or anyone to go to. So I allow audio visual destraction to take place. I'm talking movie and television marathons (gotta love DVD box sets). I did a Twin Peaks, Indiana Jones, and Star Wars marathon for about three days (with pizza!) until my depression lifted enough for me to go back to work

 
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Old 03-14-2005, 02:59 PM   #3
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Dragon,

I'm very sorry about your weekend. I am glad to hear though that your boy friend is so understanding. If he got down to you didn't bring him down honey. That's on him not you. I'm very glad you didn't have to be alone.

Being scared of yourself is scary! It's an awful place to be! I know all too well what that feels like.

I'm glad you felt safe enough with us to come and vent. Let us know how you are. Keep posting.

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Jamie

 
Old 03-14-2005, 04:23 PM   #4
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Dear Dragon, I am terribly sorry to hear of your weekend. I hope there are not anymore in your future. On the other hand, your boyfriend sounds so wonderful. I am glad you stayed and had him to help you through your rough time. He sounds like such a doll. I often feel I am my own worst enemy. Take care. Love, Lori

 
Old 03-15-2005, 05:33 AM   #5
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Thanks for all your support guys. My boyfriend is great. We have been friends for several years and just recently got together. Very scary at first but now I am very happy.

I am feeling a little better. I guess I was so terrified because it has been so long since I have been like that. I am usually a little manic. I am still down but not scared of myself anymore.

Thanks again for listening. You guys are the best.
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Old 03-15-2005, 04:07 PM   #6
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Whew! I am so glad you are doing better. Isn't that the best when you are friends first then bf//gf? I love it! Take care, Love, Lori

 
Old 03-16-2005, 06:57 AM   #7
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I am still a little down today. I am in a mood where everyone and everything is getting on my nerves.

It is always good to be friends with your s.o. I was a little reluctant at first though because my previous relationship with what used to be a friend turned out so bad. I don't see that happening this time.
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Old 03-16-2005, 09:32 AM   #8
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I hear you on the nerves thing. I have become way more assertive,aggressive, whatever then I ever have been and its kind of fun snapping on people. Not family, but everyone else - LOL! Glad all is well with s.o. Take care. Love, Lori

 
Old 03-17-2005, 06:57 AM   #9
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Reesie...i too do the movie thing....on christmas when my daughter was out of town visiting her dad, i had a johnny depp fest....rented all the depp movies i could find....some were so sad that i cried buckets, others funny....went through all emotions, very cathartic....and the whole time i got to look at johnny depp, lololol....
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Old 03-18-2005, 05:40 AM   #10
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mmm....Johnny Depp....

I just find it hard to concentrate an anything when I am that depressed. I usually just sit and stare at the wall or the ceiling or whatever is in front of me. I guess it's like I am looking at the movie but not listening and understading it. I guess if your gonna look at something, let it be Johnny Depp!
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