I too have had moments when I was afraid of myself and really depressed. But I have nowhere to go or anyone to go to. So I allow audio visual destraction to take place. I'm talking movie and television marathons (gotta love DVD box sets). I did a Twin Peaks, Indiana Jones, and Star Wars marathon for about three days (with pizza!) until my depression lifted enough for me to go back to work
I'm very sorry about your weekend. I am glad to hear though that your boy friend is so understanding. If he got down to you didn't bring him down honey. That's on him not you. I'm very glad you didn't have to be alone.
Being scared of yourself is scary! It's an awful place to be! I know all too well what that feels like.
I'm glad you felt safe enough with us to come and vent. Let us know how you are. Keep posting.
Dear Dragon, I am terribly sorry to hear of your weekend. I hope there are not anymore in your future. On the other hand, your boyfriend sounds so wonderful. I am glad you stayed and had him to help you through your rough time. He sounds like such a doll. I often feel I am my own worst enemy. Take care. Love, Lori
Thanks for all your support guys. My boyfriend is great. We have been friends for several years and just recently got together. Very scary at first but now I am very happy.
I am feeling a little better. I guess I was so terrified because it has been so long since I have been like that. I am usually a little manic. I am still down but not scared of myself anymore.
Thanks again for listening. You guys are the best.
I am still a little down today. I am in a mood where everyone and everything is getting on my nerves.
It is always good to be friends with your s.o. I was a little reluctant at first though because my previous relationship with what used to be a friend turned out so bad. I don't see that happening this time.
I hear you on the nerves thing. I have become way more assertive,aggressive, whatever then I ever have been and its kind of fun snapping on people. Not family, but everyone else - LOL! Glad all is well with s.o. Take care. Love, Lori
Reesie...i too do the movie thing....on christmas when my daughter was out of town visiting her dad, i had a johnny depp fest....rented all the depp movies i could find....some were so sad that i cried buckets, others funny....went through all emotions, very cathartic....and the whole time i got to look at johnny depp, lololol....
PPP~~~
I just find it hard to concentrate an anything when I am that depressed. I usually just sit and stare at the wall or the ceiling or whatever is in front of me. I guess it's like I am looking at the movie but not listening and understading it. I guess if your gonna look at something, let it be Johnny Depp!
