woodfaery

Hello everyone, I have found these boards to be so absolutely a God send. Most of my life I have struggled with depression and anxiety. Its very difficult, as many of you know. Well, I am in between stopping a medication to get on a different medication. My only struggles have been occasional anxiety. This is my dilemma. I am a non custodial parent. I have never been a bad parent, if anything I have struggled with trying to cope with depression to the point where it has been debilatating. When I became a non custodial parent I was very lost. But somehow I picked up the peices and moved on to try and make my life as livable and successful as possible. Well, for several years I went to college and even graduated from a college program. As life has gone on, my youngest teenage son continues to be angry about me "not being good enough" not giving hime enough love, not giving him more of myself. Well, I try to tell him how very much I love him. This is never good enough. I spend time with him, he just acts like I can never be a good enough mother for him. Some days are better than others, but for the most part I cant seem to meet up to his expectations no matter what I do. Well, as time has gone on, I have thought and seen signs of Bipolar Depression. He seems to be a rapid cycler. He is on medication, but taking Prozac--and this does not seem to be helpful for him. His father, knows he is struggling emotionally but will not get him in to the doctor. What can I do, I am so sad and blame myself for all my son says. I know this cant be healthy. Does anyone have any suggestions at all. Please share your thoughts, I want to understand how I can help my son.
Truly, Woodfaery