any help would be apreciated
so i broke up with my first love about a month and a half ago.... we were together for over a year.... she basicly dumped me one day out of the blue without a reason at all... just that she didnt feel anything for me anymore
anyways since then i have had many ups and downs.... days i feel fine, and days i feel like i want to die..... sometimes i can go through those extremes more then a couple times a day.... its gotten to the point now that it's been awhile already and im still constantly thinking about her because everything still reminds me about her.
for instance the past 2 days were SOLID for me,.... pure enjoyment everything from seeing cosmic gate at a party, drinking with friends on a sunny day to playing soccer with over 20 buddies.... yet i wake up a day later and want to take the knife to myself again ( not literlly im too strong of a person to do that but it is actually the lowest ive ever felt by far) last week about an hour into my soccer game this 'feeling' hit me again and i could not do anything let alone finish the game.
my question , is it normal to experiance depression in this manner after a break up or has this actually done some serious damage to me that isnt going to heal with time?