Hey it's me again, still hanging in there.
I'm new to this Bipolor disorder and haven't been properily medicated yet. I just went through what you call mania where I was in a good mood for days on end for about eight weeks(is it call mania?). Now for the past two weeks it's been the opposite. Some days are better than others, today is so far, is going to be a good one. If I was in a good mood for such a long time than that means I'll be in a crappy mood for another 6 weeks or so? I'm so new at this I really can't be properily medicated yet right?
Well to explain my past a little, I'm a recovering heroin addict and have used heroin for 4 years. Then when I started my recovery last fall and I kept using every now and then. For the past 10 weeks I've been clean from heroin. Does heroin surpresses bipolor? I beleive it does, cause I never new I had bipolor untill after I was diagnosed with it last Feb. I'm only 20 years old, bye the way. The doctors only gave me prozac and nothing else. They told me to fill out a mood journal, which I'm behind on. This mood journal, filling it out, will it give the doctors an idea on what meds I should be on? I don't even think I've been diagnose with which number I'm at, one or two I don't know.
I wonder if it was my junk habbit that cause me to have bipolor or was it that I was born to develope this.
I know I should go back on the prozac, but it's been over a month now. Why even bother. I'm still working on getting some type of coverage so I'll have the means to support my meds and therapy. I stopped going to the doctors too cause I just don't have the money. I'm flat broke with no job, except an odd job here and an odd job there. Any money I do earn goes towards my methadone, if I stop taking that I'll deffentily go back to using and that's just going backwards. I rather suffer through depression than go through withdrawls from methadone.
Talk to you guys later