of this new abusive relationship STAT. Even if you had NO mental illness and had it all "together," it is never a good idea for ANYBODY newly divorced to jump right back into another relationship for at LEAST A YEAR after the divorce is final. You need time to grieve the old relationship and heal! Also, time to get to know what you really want and think about what mistakes you made in your choices when you picked that person.
Meanwhile, yes, you are going to feel BAD with a capital B. I left my abusive, alcoholic husband of six years in 1990. My diagnosis at the time was Borderline Personality Disorder, but I had my first manic episode that Thanksgiving. I had NO support group, had just started a new job, and was living totally alone in a tiny apartment. I was hospitalized with a complete and total nervous breakdown after a six-week manic episode (not a happy one, just one where I couldn't sleep and I was horribly afraid). Over the next three years I worked hard at stabilizing myself at my new job, met a new man, and married him in 1993. He understands my illness completely and supports me, although it isn't always easy. We have a nine-year-old daughter and SHE has been versed in my illness since she was old enough to walk. I hadn't been hospitalized since 1990 when I had her in 1996, as I was doing so well, but severe postpartum depression seem to bring everything all back. I was only able to maintain my job till June 1997, then I had to go on disability. I was in and out of hospitals for five years after that, but have managed to stay out for three years now. My daughter is doing great but my ability to concentrate is limited by my meds, etc.
Sorry, blabbing about MYSELF! Yes, you will feel bad, but the important thing is that you find a SUPPORT group. Also, check out if anybody in your area does EMDR therapy. It's supposed to be very helpful! Also, I know it doesn't feel like, but this horrible time in your life WILL END. I am living proof.
Good luck and god bless!
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