Yep, I've talked to people... my sister as well who was a lot of help.
I guess other people think I have a problem too because of my terrible unexplainable moodswings.
But my boyfriend did come around today and talked a bit, but didn't help much because he wouldn't accept my apologies. So I went to his brother, who helped a lot with the situation.
His brother went to their house with me and I had to talk to the whole family... which was a total drag but at least I was civil enough to apologize to those people... because they would have never done it to me even though they haven't been exactly the nicest people to me either from the beginning.
I was "kicked out" of the house many times for no good reason.
It's a complicating situation. Their family is very screwed up... Mother having to raise 4 kids on her own since she was 18; father's an alcoholic, etc etc. Messed up stuff.
But yea.. I had to sit there and apologize and listen to them talk about some totally bogus stuff. But I didn't really bother arguing. I just accepted it since they're some very stubborn people.
Then I talked to my boyfriend and patched things up a bit.
It's getting better.
I hope things don't turn out that way between us. I'd hate to have a family with him only to have everything turn out the way it's been with them.
But yea, I told him pretty much everything.. how I feel about things, can't explain my feelings that are very hard to control, and that I need a lot of support from him since I don't have very many people around who are willing to sit and listen to me whine.
I guess even though there are some things that I don't like, I gotta put up with it. Life isn't perfect.. we all have stuff we don't like.
My sister suggested I go see someone soon. So I think I will be doing that with her help.
Thanks a lot, you've been a big help as well