madmac

Folks,

First- a recap: diag cyclomethic in UK 1.5 years ago- would not admit to extent of extremes of highs and lows. Not told what it was, or why I should take Zispin, and no follow ups (usual with granny-state UK National Death Service) Diag clinical depression in Canada- March 05, recurrent dep in June. GP says prob BP- waiting on urgent reff to local MH unit. Wife a BsN, now nursing instructor- got job cause I dragged us around 4 countries. Enough.

Rejoined wife in Canada Sept 04, think I went a bit manic Dec 04. She called cops- chucked out of house. Talked to her today: she seems bent on me accepting all responsibility for my actions prior to any diagnosis. Willing to admit I was probably a pain, but how was I to know? I thought my frame of mind was due to life and normal! I can understand if someone knows, understands they have a condition and decides to stop taking meds they know work- but accept all resp for actions? It seems like blaming a short sighted person, not previously sight tested, for walking into things. Also got an earful about not looking after my diabetes (still in good health), though told at diab clinic that BP and depressed patients usually dont look after themselves- too depressed or think they are superman (my experience).

Life seems pretty unfair- feels like I've been discarded, or taken to the vet by her mother to be put down....