| | Meltdown
I'm here at work and I'm trying not to be seen or noticed by anyone because I keep crying. Cant stop. When I'm by myself, I just cry. When I'm around someone who sees this and they ask me, I try to explain, but when they downplay it I flip out on them. My boss is looking at me funny because she knows I'm not doing anywork. But I dont know how I'm supposed to. My doctor recommended me going into the hospital due to my "tendencies" but I cant afford to miss any work because I need money for school my next semester. I dont want to go home because my Dad is bipolar himself and is on NO meds and it makes it worse for me to be around him while he's in a mood, which is always. I have no friends. My boyfriend neglects me. At this point I seem to hate everyone. I have a urinary tract infection which I refuse to get looked at because I dont want to go on antibiotics because they make me feel worse. Tomorrow I go in for a 3hour psych evaluation with a new doctor. Next Friday too. I dont know what to do. I want to disappear.
"All credibility, all good conscience, all evidence of truth come only from the senses."