kimber lee

Hello everyone, First i would like to say that i thank you for all being so polite and cool, you are all so very friendly and i accually have concern and care for all of you as you have shown to me.
I have a theory, first of all i was on meds for 7 years, all the different ones, all the pretty colors, all the combinations of what would have been the rigt cocktail, some times close but never the way i wanted it to work in a perfect way( there is no perfect cocktail in my eyes)Im not bieng judgemental or rude or thinking that im all that, but let me tell you what has worked for me(no not jesus, he helps but unfortunatly hes not the answer, it goes beyond that. Every single med i had ever went on had such side effects you know the tipical , weight gain , low sex drive, all that crap, and i spent so much time waiting for the meds to kick in and dealing with the side effects that i forgot one thing.... we need to understand bipolar and we need to deal with itas it comes naturally, all th ups and downs, weird deranged ideas, no sleeping for days, happy sad happy sad happpy happpy sad sad... the unfocused situations, the manic episodes, the depression, binges, irrational behaviors.. ocd, paranoid thoughts, losing job after job, it has been a struggle becasue i went off all my meds 4 years ago and decided to take the take me as i am bipolar girl and deal with everything that bipolar has stricken me with on a daily basis. it took 2 years to get a grip after going off all the meds becasue they fudged me up so bad tha ti didnt know if i we coming or going.(i dfinatley know that i wasnt coming, (hats a joke) and this is my point, we are all humans and we all have sexual desires from the time we are very young and that is such a good feeling, When i lost my libido from the meds i couldnt figure out what was wrong with me, then i realized, we are all humans that need sexual desire, it is a given and if that one thing is taken away(from the meds) we are in big trouble. sex is important, not just jumping into bed sex but even visual stimuli would be nice if we havnt lost that too, If nothing turns us on anymore,whats left? more meds? So what im trying to say is , try going off the meds and see what can happen, its not such a mess as you think, i was bad, im still not great but a heck of alot happier not taking any meds atall and just deal with the **** as it come and fudge everyone else that says that you need the meds, in my case it is working for me and alittle excited from day to day to see whats going to come my way, sorry this is so long i hope i make sense, im not saying my way is the right way, it is for me, i just gave myself a chance to explore and delve into this illness, and to see what would happen,so far so good, well take care you all you are great.