No matter where you go, there you are!
BP's are very sensitive, creative people. If you let it, that sensitivity and creativity will show YOU a Hawaii that the norms will never see!
Going out on a limb here...IMHO
It sounds as though you are very angry about being BP. I would guess that its the ANGER and NOT the BP that keeps you from truely enjoying Hawaii. Try to open your heart to YOU, accept that you HAVE BP rather than you ARE BP, we are all so much MORE than BPs. BiPolar is a condition NOT a species, its simply a PART of who you are.
Back on safe ground again...
I LOVE Hawaii! And am positively GREEN with 'scratch your eyes out' envy! Good to get that off my chest!
Get out there and ENJOY!!! THOSE are YOUR orders!