Re: Need your help....
Do you have hallucinations and/or delusions when you're not manic? If so, you could have schizoaffective disorder, which is a combination of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. The difference is that schizoaffectives still have psychotic symptoms even when they're experiencing a normal mood. Are you bipolar I? People who have bipolar I are the ones with the full-blown psychotic episodes.
"Not everything that steps out of line, and thus 'abnormal,' must necessarily be 'inferior.'"