I can only speak for myself. I used to be very negative around the so called normies. Not productive. Now my life has gotten progressively worse since that time. I pick and choose carefully who I am going to talk to about my illness. Your best bet is a therapist. You can also find a group of friends that your only goal is to have fun with them. When you aren't feeling well, then don't hang out. The person who needs to be pleased is you. You need to feel better about yourself. And just for the record, you'll never be normal....and be grateful for it! And as for the meds, I have been through most and I just keep on plucking away. Best wishes to you!
Jim, I also used to be very negative around other people, not fun to be around. My sister just recently said, that I have become funny and fun to be around. When I asked what she meant, she said that I used to be angry all the time.
My med combination is Celexa and Trileptal, which the Trileptal has helped me to gain weight, so I'm going to see if I can get that changed, but it's worked well for me.