Re: Your input please
My situation has been quite similar to yours. Started out with plain 'ol depression for several years, then the rapid mood swings kicked in. Doc says that is typical as u get older and the illness goes untreated (or misdiagnosed like I was). Also says anti-depressants taken alone w/o a mood stabilizer can actually make b.p. worse. Think that's what happened w/my prozac. I've only been on lamictal a few weeks and have already noticed a significant improvement! I'm not crying all the time and wishing I was dead, not having irrational outbursts, and I've got a lot more patience with my kids. I can actually smile now!
So please, please listen to your doc and take the meds. You'll be so much better off. I know you're scared right now, but trust me, life is much scarier w/o the meds. They will make u feel so much better and you'll be so glad u did. So hold on. There is hope and we're all here for u to lean on. Please let us know what's going on.