JSonshine

Thank you so much! I'm not sure, but I'm just not doing well on the Topamax. I think I need a lower dosage maybe. I'm taking 100 mg 2 times a day. Plus 60 mg of Prozac. Today I actually screamed at my 4 year old and scared him. I'm NEVER done that before. I don't know what's happening to me. Excess stimulation, noise, etc. freaks me out and I can't stand it. It's like I want total silence. Is that anxiety? Before I took the Topa, I was suicidal, now that is gone (thank goodness), but I'm screaming and so b**chy I don't know myself. And, I'm socially anxious. I want to scratch my husband's eyes out. Truly. For no reason that I can think of. Because he's breathing I guess. I'm feeling such rage. I think I'm in hypomania. Is it the topamax? At least I'm not suicidal, ha ha. But, homicidal isn't good either, ha! ; ) Unfortunately, my next dr. apt isn't for 2 weeks. I'm new at this (8 wks diagnosed). Do I call for an earlier apt. because I'm scaring myself or just lump it until then? THat L.... med sounds pretty good about now! ACK!!!!!!!!!!! i'M Actually craving some drinking just to come down. BUt, I won't that would be bad to combine with all these funky meds. I might just blow up or something like a chem experiement. Who knows, smoke might come out my ears >>>>>>>>>>