I recently ran out of meds for about 4 days cause i didn't get ahold of my doc before the weekend. I was so differant

when i wasn't taking them and really i felt
ALOT better

. I wonder if this is just the way it always happens.
Sweet bliss and peace for a couple of days then after a while that all goes away and into the hell and disaray my life brings when on meds. Life just doesn't seem differant when im on meds but not on meds i feel like I could rule the world.
I want to go off meds and have thought about it for awhile (on and off of course) I guess im just sick of the way i feel all the time and i want to finally discover what its really like to be med free......Im also scared of what id be if i wasn't on them....
I know that i should take them the way i should but sometimes i slip up and only take them once a day which is no differant if i took them the way i should, 2wice a day........ I just need some advice thanks for help!!!!! *JESSI*