I have been doing so well on 900 mg of LIth a night, for months and months, then bamo, the last two weeks it went to pot. It started out slow, now I find my moods all over the place.
I keep going manic and bouncing over to sad and then back again. The lith worked so good, I wonder why suddenly its failing... I think I need to go up, but I don't see the doc for another two months. Each day is worse and worse like its grip is falling away.
I am hoping I can control my moods mentally until I see the Doc...
The winds a howling...and I am trying to hang on, I wonder why the meds are stopping... I can't sleep, then I can't get out of bed...I am a rapid cycler, but it was never this bad.
I thought about it, but its the weekend, I figured I could give them a shout maybe tomorrow in office. I know for sure I can get him on Wednesday, I am honestly considering calling.
I went down to the hospital and brought the lith level slip had gave me a bit ago, I needed to get that done anyway. I got that done at least. (actually my wife pushed me in that direction, I think she is worried)
Though I have to admit, I feel darn good. Best I have felt in many a moon, I forgot how this felt, skins all tingly. The only down side I got right now is I keep seeing people out of the corner of my eye, kind of wierd.(thats new) I think back and don't see any emotional triggers the last two weeks, shy of I started working out with the weights heavy duty again. I can't imagine that had anything to do with it.
I feel pretty sure I might be able to keep it in control. Though I am cautious of that deduction, being deep in a manic. I have my wife to keep my feet on the floor.
I am tempted to increase my lith to 1200 to help until I talk with him, But I fear I might not have the best judgement right now.