Please help me
I don't know what is wrong with me, basically I have reached the end of my rope, I've hit rock bottom. I can't control my emotions, it's like 2 people live within me. My "neutral" state would be apathetic, I don't care about anything. Sometimes I'll just completely flip out and hurt everyone I love by telling them that I hate them and I hope they die. After the whole freak out ordeal is over I will feel so depressed that I'll contemplate suicide. Everyone tells me to go see a doctor, and believe me, I want too, but 15 minutes later I feel completely different and I don't want to go anymore, can anyone please help me?
Btw...I don't know if this was the write disease to post under.