I hope you are well today, from your post I got the feeling that you felt slightly isolated through your illness..... Well the jist of the posts on here more or less mirror that... I cant understand why there arent more groups, meetings, activities, chances for BP suffers to get together and really relate... (maybe they dont want us all together in one room)!!!!!!! You cannot beat a good chin wag with people that you KNOW really do understand you and are not just nodding through politeness, or fear!!!! My husband can be pretty much like yours, it does at times sound like I am self pittying, however I have learnt to balance every bleak view, thought or feeling with one that is good, wholsome and appreciative of the positives in my life... There are times when I convince myself that positive does not exist in my vocabulary and I am just the most pathetic, awful, eccentric, shining loonatic that ever had the nerve to walk these streets in my slippers!!! Why not!! One who no one takes seriously because they havent got a clue as to what is going on up stairs in the head department!!! I am sick and tired and tired and sick of explaining, excusing, hoping that I will be forgiven just for been little old me..... Talk about full time job, I need to be paid not only a weekly wage for been me but danger money too.. Or get a stunt double cos Im not too good on the physical side, my brain is athletic my body comotozed!!!! well sometimes, at the moment I am going through a manic stage, hence the state of this post!!
I really dont know what to suggest to you apart from to get every bit of info on any groups, activities or alike that will enable you to get some sort of release... Failing that get a tannoy and sandwhich board and get out into the cities spreading the BP word!!!!! Its not easy, I havent found a way, but im trying!!! You are in my thoughts, take care