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AM I ALONE? · 03-07-2006, 08:47 AM

ive been on the depression site as that is what my doc has said that i have got, the only thing is i dont! ive been all over the place for a while now and i had been managing to keep it sort of under cantrol for the sake of my family, the only thing is now im finding it all to hard.
im having so many mood swing in only day i cant keep count, i go from all scared to depressed to haing no fear at all being totally calm, and thinking that i coould do anything and nothing bad could happen to me.
ive been put on 40mg a day flux and 4 25mg tranqs a day but yes it does take some of the edge off, but not all of the time. I have thought about going down to the hospital but i feel too scared and the person that i see from the comunnity mental health team has told me it might just make me worse, all i want is to be 'normal' but i have never been this way, its getting too bad for me now,
can anyone shed some light on what might be wrong please as im going out of my mind here and i dont think that i can wait 8 months to see a psyc doc to diagnose me which is what i have been told!
thanks tan x

jadeliza · 03-07-2006, 10:53 AM

I would go to the Doc, and say exactly how you are feeling. I was treated for depression, until a GP finally said that he thought that I was BiPolar. I thought that I was too. I can be so depressed, and then I am terrified, then hyper. AT the moment I am on 150mg of Effexor and I am just about to start Lithuim.
I wasnt diagnose BP, because I only went to the GP when I was depressed, I never thought that the other feelings that I had were part of the symtoms as wel.
Good Luck

cagedbird · 03-08-2006, 11:25 PM

I would go to the hospital I don't feel it will make you worse. they might even give you the right meds for your condition. Why the mental health people will say it will make you worse I don't understand? I went to the doctor for anxiety,and 2 years later went to a psyc doc when i was very depressed. I'm DX as bipolar,I have mild bipoar that is called Cyclothymia. It may be mild but it's tuff to live with. Half the time i don't know what mood, or how many moods I'll be in for that day. I'm either depressed, normal,?, or the life of the party with energy to spare! I'm medicated now for 6 years,and life is better then before not being medicated. It's a rollercoaster ride for sure! Get some help and the right DX.
((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
cagedbird

klawk316 · 03-12-2006, 03:52 PM

Why would it take so long to see a psychiatrist?

I was depressed as a child and started mood swings when I was 12. It was a living hell. I had no friends and withdrew from my family. I was so afraid people would find out I was crazy. I didn't tell anyone and did not go to the doctor until I was 35. What a waste of life. I was first put on lithium and found out what it was like to be normal. I went off for two years and suffered greatly. I'm on lamictal now and am doing well. Please don't waste anytime finding help. If the hospital is your only resource, use it. Or better yet, call a psychiatrist and make an appointment. It shouldn't take but a week to get an appointment.

When I went off the meds for two years, I also started peri menopause, but I didn't realize it. The combination was disastrous. Up and down all day long, instead of my norm three-five week cycle. Could you be beginning the change. Check the menopause message board, they may have a list of beginning symptoms. It can start as early as mid-late 30s. It is kind of interesting, that my bipolar began at puberty, and got worse during the peri fluctuations. Hmmm.

Shonn · 04-04-2006, 08:26 PM

Sounds just like me.........