Hello There,
I hope that you are well today..... In answer to yuor question from my perspective, I am in receipt of Disability Living Allowance which is paid because of my inability to work due to the BP and OCD etc etc....
You say do people look at you differently... well a quotation that I think rather appropriate here is;
"Always be and say exactly what you are and feel, because those who mind dont matter, & those that matter dont mind"
Your close friends and family will apprecaite that your mental illness is affecting you greatly and to the level where you cannot perform on a professional level. That does not equal to laziness in no way shape or form and anyone who perceives it in that light is someone who has limited if any knowledge about mental illness, if that is the case and they are a part of your life maybe they should look at reading up a little.
"We are here to enlarge our souls, light up our brains and liberate spirits."
I would say the most important thing in all of this is how you feel about the situation, once you know draw from that the many positives.... You are allowing yourself the time needed to fix and focus on your problems. If you dont things could worsen, it takes more of a person to freely admitt they are in need of help, than to live in denial and internally worsen... I wish you all the very best. God bless and take care.