my week is not going so well...
I am bipolar, and take respirdal (just lowered to .25 rather then 1 mg or mcg or whatever it is) and effexor (150mg)
monday I saw my endocronologist (I have hypothyroidism) about my very high levels of cortisol. He pretty much told me there are limitations to what medicine can do and I have to live with what I have.
tuesday I had a performance appraisal at work, and despite a decent raise, the apprasial was immersed in terrible things about me.
Today, I went to herbal magic (since october I have lost 40 lbs) and in the last 3 months, I have lost only 10 of that.
I just feel crummy. Life is going to *****. I hate how little control I have over my moods and my typical reaction to life's hard spots- which would be smoke more weed.
I'm in 3rd year honours psychology, maintaining an A average. The last two weeks of school are on me and I have major presentations that are due and I haven't started them yet, which is unusual for me.
I feel at such a loss, I don't smile. I don't laugh. I cry a lot. I know I am going deeper into depression, but my psychiatrist is not worried. My endo thinks I am fine. My gp is on vacation and tries as hard as he can to find good specialists that will help me. Another doctor, a surgeon that deals with my scans (RAI uptake in august for thyroid cancer) is the most concerned but the least able to help.
Where do I go now?