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I am getting ready to go back to the doctor on Friday to hopefully start back on my meds. I decided last year that I didnt need them anymore, I found other ways to self medicate. I am kinda scared as to what they will find-ots a new doctor and its just a general practioner im sure he will try to prescribe me something cause I think I am really about to lose it-literally/ i am in the worse state of mind right now-I just dont care about anything right at the moment. I want to feel like I used to so I think it is time to go back on my meds. I dont know what they will put me on but something has to be better than this. I am still using every once in a while and that is going to be hard to stop but hopefully with the meds i wont need to fell the urge to self medicate anymore. I am really scared that I am beyond help!
Anyone have any words of comfort?
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