| I only feel good when Im so druged i cant even speak.
IM really starting to scare myself,I feel that i cannot be "normal" if im not numb all over .When Im in a awake state Im obsesive, agressive, Im paranoid,I feel like i can stand myself and others cant stand me, including my kids,I have no one to takl to about it, My husband doesnt want to talk tome about anything I feel he treats me like a retarded person, no straight anwsers, when i ask about something he turns and walks away and tells me: I dont want to fight, i cant even express my opinions.Im so alone....
how do i get out of this, how can i feel good about my self and regain my strenght as a person?
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