Hello all.. To try and explain all of the last four years with my son is .. well impossible so I will try and shorten it up ..My son is 12 years old. He was diagnosed bipolar 1 last year at bc childrens hospital in vancouver. He has been in and out of hospital five times in four years. He is now in hospital again after only being home since feb. My son has a fetish. He wants to wear diapers.
He stole suppository's from a grocery store , came home went to the bathroom . Came out with blood all over his hands. He looked scared and said something was wrong with his bum. He then told me it was his finger , then he said he put 8 of them up there at once. Well we soon realized that he had used the tin foil of the package to cut his rectum all up. He had a lot of different reasons to as why..
HE said he was sad and wanted to hurt himself , then it was that he wanted to see himself bleed. Then he finally came out with , he thought if he used the suppositories long enough he would become dependent and have to run to the bathroom all the time and maybe it would convince me to let him wear diapers. For as long as I can remember my son has always had a thing for diapers. He has done a good job of hiding it the last few years but has been caught on the internet looking up adults in diapers in a sexual way.
I am praying that he can get the help he needs but he wont open up to the doctors so they are frustrated. One doctor seemed to think he was border line personality disorder rather than bipolar.? Are fetishes a big part of the illness.? I want to know how I can help him function when he is in hyper sexuality mode which seems to be the case. Yes he is only 12 but he is also five feet ten inches tall and very much well into puberty.
I do not understand what is happening to my son. He is a kind person and very lovable. He also fantasizes about harming myself and his brother. We have all the knives put away , all the medicines and pills. He is so down on himself and figures he would be better off dead. All that consumes him is his thoughts and they are of very wierd sorts so that makes him feel like a freak. So he concentrates on the fetish. Really if anyone has some serious advice on how to help this situation .. please would be appreciated.
he is currently in a locked room in the hospital , hopefully he will be let out today.