Bad Temper and other feelings - Bipolar Disorder Message Board

*Lai* · 05-23-2006, 11:36 AM

I'v noticed that ever sinced i'v been diagnosed with Bipolar (and before that when i was unwell), i 'v got such a bad temper. I really dont like it and i sometimes hurt the people around me, especially my bf- if he does anything to upset me, such as turning up really late for something or always cancelling (he does this on a regular basis but he does have his reasons). I just cnt help screaming at him and telling him how much he hurt me and how he doesnt care for me or show any appreciation.(this really hurts him and makes me feel awful after because i know how much he cares for me).
He says i need to try deal with my bad temper and try not to get so angry, he says it is a bit extreme sometimes. I really want to understand it more and not be this way, i hate it. Sometimes if i go for a walk, it'l calm me down, but then i just get upset.

Sometimes, when i get angry at home, i'l throw things around and break things, just out of pure anger. I also self harm when i get angry too, but i'm trying not to do that.

If i dont get angry, i'l get offended and upset at the smallest thing someone would say to me, such as if i sleep to much, or i dont do the chores as soon as i'm told or if anyone says anything that proves that i am as worthless and horrible as i say and think i am.

I'v always been a moody person tho, from when i was really young.

If anyone can relate or offer any advice that would be great.

Thank You.

xx

coffeegirl2 · 05-23-2006, 01:21 PM

This is a mood swing. There is a phrase for it, but I don't know what it is called.

When I get angry, break things, scream, etc. my DH puts me into time out. Yes; believe it or not, I get sent to my bedroom to calm down.

It works! Also, I journal or go for walks. Sometimes DH will send me off to the coffeeshop to have some time alone as well as that is a place where I can also calm myself down and vent my steam away. Or call a friend. Anything to avoid throwing things, screaming, etc.

Sometimes, I don't realize I'm screaming. That is the worst. It hurts when I do that. I hate myself for when that happens. I become very depressed when that occurrs.

That is how things are handled at my household.

Coffeegirl

*Lai* · 05-23-2006, 02:47 PM

Thank you. I dont know what i experience half the time. My bf calls them temper tantrums. I try to go for walks too and they help sometimes. I just wish there was a way i could control them and reduce them.

I know how it feels to feel guilty, it really hurts after doesn't it. But your DH sounds really understanding and i think you'revery lucky to have such a caring and loving DH,( dooes that stand for darling/dear husband? sorry if its a dumb question!?!).

Thanx again

xx

beforeXdishonor · 05-23-2006, 05:57 PM

I experience the same things.
Are you on meds? If you are, you may not have the right combination.
And if you aren't. The meds should help stabalize your mood.
When I get into my bad mood, and me and DH argue, I say the most horrible things. And then I usually spend some time depressed about what I did, But I also agree that sometimes I don't realize I'm screaming, or what I'm saying.
I'm also not on meds right now, so that's a HUGE contributing factor.
Is he aware of how BP works and what happens?
Have him really read up on it, or even come on the boards so maybe he can get a better understanding of it.