For over two years now, i've found it very difficult to get motivated. i have stopped sleeping so much, since i got a normal working hours job, and that has helped a little. but I was on depakote for a series of months and gained a lot of weight. i hate my body, but can't get myself to exercise much; i simply have the hardest time getting into the "i can do it" mindset. it just seems so hard. it's devastating cuz i used to be a cross country runner--10 miles at a time, no problem! (of course that was 8 years ago...) now, i can barely walk home from work without being out of breath. i ordered a motivational book in march, but it still hasn't arrived.

and i heard it's great for weight loss.
my mood: stable, balanced; i don't feel depressed, or manic. my meds are perfect!
but how do you get yourself motivated???
any suggestions or feedback would be most appreciated! i need guidance, lessons, anything.
*megan*