*Lai*

Hi, for the past few days i have been stressed about a few things and they have really been getting to me because they concern decisions i have to make very soon.
Then yesterday in the evening (after a stressful few hours), i got so stressed and upset that i started to get very bad headaches. The pain was not like my normal headaches it was like someone was stamping on the top of my head, i felt alot of pressure pushing down and like my brain was being crushed. I havent experienced any headaches like this since just before my breakdown about 2 years ago when i was extreamly extreamly stressed.

So now i'm worried that these headaches are signs that i'm going to go into a manic/depressd episode. I was really scared yesterday and tried to do everything i could to get my mind off it.
Today has been alittle better, but when i stress just the slightest bit or worry about something for a second the headache is there again.
Sometimes i get it if i'm tryiing to read something or undersatnd it.

And also yesterday, after i started getting the headaches, it actually hurt to think and try to remember things.

So now i'm very worried because i dont think my brain can handle any pressure and that i'm making the wrong decision to go back to college. I start in september and i'm worried i'm going to get unwell. I dont think i'll be able to go to uni either, so i'm upset that this illness is holding me back from being more than just Bipolar ( i want a sense of accomplishment).

Anyone have and advice or suggestions about if these headachs are something to be worried about and if i should go back to studying?!?!?

Oh, and i havent been taking my medication properly so that might have something to do with it. I keep missing the morning dose and so i take 2 tablets rather that 3. This medication isnt as good as my last one too, so maybe that explains why i cant handle as much stress as i could 2 months ago.

Thank You.

ps I worry way to much about everything, its just how i have always been, its anxiety i guess.

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